I'm Sensitive.............BACK OFF

  A period of shut down. Drudging through a time with no ambition to get up. don't care if you turn a light on. Sick of TV but watching something...anything...anyway. 300 plus channels and nothing seems to be on. Started feeling too bad to do anything. Then without realizing it you stop feeling....about anything. it doesn't matter if the dust is an inch thick...don't turn the lights on and you don't see it. Only run the dishwasher once a week, if that, because you aren't eating anyway. Saves money on bills but eventually being a hermit goes too far. Nothing bothers me...but I don't care about anything either. if you're lucky you start to climb out of it. Not sure why or when it will happen...it just hopefully does. 

  When you do seem to be starting to care again...the good and the bad comes. AGGRAVATION!! I am feeling a lot of that! Why would somebody spill a little something in the fridge and not clean it up? Aggravating. I'm awake and feel like crap...somebody else is still asleep...it's after noon...how much noise can I make to wake them up? Aggravating. My head hurts...your talking..I'm not speaking...why are you? Aggravating. That car stopped in front of my house...WHY? Aggravating. That person just walked through my yard. Aggravating. Why are you breathing so loud?!?!?!?! OK...way too far! LOL but true.

  Every little thing I haven't cared about is driving me crazy. Stuff that really should NOT bother me is bothering me. OK this is going too far. You shut some things off then everything follows and you don't care about anything. You start to turn some of those feelings back on and stuff comes back with a vengeance! Payback! Teach you to turn off. This will drive your loved ones CRAZZZYYYY!!! There has to be a happy medium in there somewhere but how long will it take to find?

SORRY  SORRY  SORRY  SORRY  SORRY  SORRY  SORRY  SORRY  SORRY  SORRY

I think I'll have a T-shirt made that is jut covered with the word sorry. Oh..and sweatpants that say "I'm Overreacting" on a minute to minute basis!

  You pay for turning off feelings...they get you back in a Big way! When they start taking hold again they are sensitive....VERY SENSITIVE! There is the shirt for me...

                I'm Sensitive...BACK OFF!

I can't wait to find the middle ground on the volume of my feeling's again. From 0 to 100 and looking for the middle!