The first 5 days of the prednisone countdown I was up 3 of them. It helped with some swelling and caused others. The wonderful "pain medication" the dr gave me....total crap(trammadol), I had forgotten my generic to brand reference book when going to the dr's office..or I could have told her Ultram doesn't do as much as aspirin for me.
I had energy and truly felt better...I felt better enough to realize just how bad it had gotten. Probably a little depressed that I had let it get so bad while trying to tell myself it wasn't that bad. I hate that. Do it a lot it seems. Try to talk myself into believing it's not as bad as I think it is. I have back slid to the point of not going out of my house, not seeing friends or family, not driving, not going to a dr, eating maybe once a day. But it's not as bad as I think it is!!!
This rambling also seems to be part of the prednisone let down for me. I had a flash of "better" but it's gone. I used to wish for just 1 hour pain free, not unconscious, to remember what it felt like. I could still use that, but now I want one day of Less pain to remember what it feels like to feel a little better!! I'm adjusting, but am I adjusting too far?
Topping off my day, I called the dr's office to have the dr call me back. She did NOT! Neither did the nurse. I DON'T CALL UNLESS IT IS HORRIBLE!! Maybe I should be someone who calls all the time. I can bug someone every single day...especially if I know it bothers them...sometimes you want to make somebody feel as bad as you do. Barring that...make them uncomfortable! I have never actually done that but I am getting sooooo close!
I was spoiled by a dr(he retired over a yr ago) who actually CARED! What a concept! Lord help me find another!
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