Manic.....and it's not Monday yet.

  This is new. I am feeling MANIC or what I think manic is. I have been a hermit for so long and coming out of it feels like I'm a little nutzzzz right now. I am not moving right now yet I feel like something inside of me is going about 100 mph! I think I'm actually "bopping" around.....this is weird! Thinking the prednisone is a stronger mg than I thought it was. OK...I checked and it is 10mg. Wow it's really got me hyper! 

  Why is everything soooo amplified? I mean I expect it to a degree but this is over the top. Boy is it going to be a huge change to stop taking this in a couple of days. Up--Down--Up--Down. I'm tired! 

  I am feeling like it was a really bad idea to avoid any doctors at all since mine retired over a year ago. I knew that it would be starting over though and it is. I have my records...it's about 5 inches thick. I asked the new Dr. did she want me to bring those in....she said no. The more I think about it the more that bothers me. I know that just about every  Dr I have been to wants to "start from their beginning"! What a pain! I have had so many procedures, been through pain clinics in-patient and out, I have had shots in my HEAD for the migraines! I have had all kinds injections for a number of reasons. MRI's, CT's, X-rays, and I really don't want to have to do them again just because you don't want to read!!!! This would be a total waste of my money to say the least! Why is it soooo easy for a Dr. to waste your money even when you make it clear you don't always have enough to get even basic medicine! It's like they don't really believe you! They don't...just like they don't really listen and believe what you tell them about what is going on with you! 

  This is soooo strange right now. I feel like I am trying to catch up to myself. My brain has me way out ahead of my body and I can't catch up!! I think I really need to go to bed but NO WAY I can sleep right now.