Money....Does anybody have any?

  It sucks to be poor and by poor I mean NOT rich! This would be soooo much easier to handle if I was rich I think. I could go to any doctor any time anywhere. Would that make it better? How many of us with chronic pain don't have the money to do what we need? Most? Sometimes you just want a steak...ya know... but do you have the money to do that...not usually. How much do you spend on your meds? More than half? I did for years I have stopped for the last year and a half. I have no running prescriptions for now. Sometimes I wish like hell I did have some. It has also made me almost a hermit. Ok this is not good...I know. It took me a long time to see it though. And it is very very hard to get out of it! Huge uphill climb. It is aggravating to have your own body argue with you about what you want to do!

  Lie in bed thinking of what you want to accomplish tomorrow. Got a whole list of things I want to do. Get up, make coffee, sit down and STAY. Well this sucks. I want to move but my body is arguing again. It's winning. I'm miserable. HELP....I'm screaming in my head....OK...no help. How can I fix this. I don't expect pain free...at least anymore. Just get it to a dull roar where I can stand it without making me comatose!!  Is that too much to ask?